I got my homework done early today and I decided to watch someone youtube. There is this one influencer who goes around to different cities of the world and asks super personal questions to random people on the street. Today’s topic was “Tell me about your first love” and it was crazy how people lit up, they smiled and they described their first loves like sunsets, like coming home, like a safe feeling. It was so fun to watch, I felt like they were all radiating this next-level happiness, I could feel it even through my screen.
It also made me feel super sad. Because I’ve never felt like that. I know I’m only fifteen but what if I want to feel love? Is that too much to ask from so young a person?